100th post. and hadn't been posting for a long time.

我不想说,不想讲. 但是一直放在心里,不知几时才有勇气说出来. 突然想起可以用这个管道把所有东西都说出来.

常跟其他人说'我不怕',但那真的是真话吗?whenever i hear anyone who've gotten their replies, i'll always ask, when am i gonna get one? what if i really dont get? what route am i gonna go? you think i really wanna go back HK to study? do i even bear to leave spore?

有时候觉得带快乐给人家真的那么重要吗? 为了不要别人担心,只好说一些自己都不知道是真还是假的话.但是始终自己都不知道自己真正在想什么.

some verses from a book i just finished reading
"For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, of love and a sound mind" 2 Tim 1:7
"Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord" Psalm 27:14