am i willing to say no to my desires?
am i willing to accept the sufferings?
am i willing to let go of all the worldly things around me?
am i willing to quieten down myself to stay in front of God?
am i willing to live a Christ-like life?

there are things that i need to resolve. but i just dont have the courage to talk about things. please pray for me. as i learn to let go of things, to forget the past. i need strngth from God. thank you my dear brothers and sisters.

it's almost 2 years. i'm blogging this because i wont be around when the day comes. 26th May 2006. thank God for the relatively good health this past 2 years.

the song that always gives me the courage and strength from God.
作曲：黄国伦 作词：黄国伦 编曲：黄国伦
你的意念高过我的意念
你的道路高过我的道路
每当我彷徨失措 软弱无助的时候词
我要在你怀中安息

你的时候不同我的时候
要等候不住感谢祈求自
知道黑暗会过去 我要在你光中欢喜
谁能敌挡我若你要帮助我

困难算什么 痛苦算什么
在它们的背后 是你祝福的手
孤单算什么 羞辱算什么
你的爱是那么深 你的恩典够我用

带领我 怜悯我 我要紧紧跟随你
我要全心依靠你 你是我主 我的拯救
带领我 扶持我 我要天天歌颂你
坚信不移你应许 你是葡萄树我是枝子不分离