剧中俩人的价值观，理想不同。女的甚至出卖了男的。但是，如果价值观不同，又怎能相爱呢? 我因这部电视剧重新思想爱。
看完这部剧，听了郑秀文的歌〈爱〉，听了3天之久。其中一句真的很贴切。"在爱情里会看到包容和牺牲，也同样可以看到猜疑和欺骗"
在神里，我会继续寻找爱是什么，我也深信真爱是需要等待的。
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Saturday, January 15, 2011
爱
最近(又)看完一部港剧〈女人最痛〉，让我不断思想爱到底是什么。男女主角最后没有在一起，但还是深爱着对方。我想了很久，为什么?
剧中俩人的价值观，理想不同。女的甚至出卖了男的。但是，如果价值观不同，又怎能相爱呢? 我因这部电视剧重新思想爱。
看完这部剧，听了郑秀文的歌〈爱〉，听了3天之久。其中一句真的很贴切。"在爱情里会看到包容和牺牲，也同样可以看到猜疑和欺骗"
在神里，我会继续寻找爱是什么，我也深信真爱是需要等待的。
剧中俩人的价值观，理想不同。女的甚至出卖了男的。但是，如果价值观不同，又怎能相爱呢? 我因这部电视剧重新思想爱。
看完这部剧，听了郑秀文的歌〈爱〉，听了3天之久。其中一句真的很贴切。"在爱情里会看到包容和牺牲，也同样可以看到猜疑和欺骗"
在神里，我会继续寻找爱是什么，我也深信真爱是需要等待的。
Thursday, September 16, 2010
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Wednesday, March 10, 2010
当我正在赶essay时，上fb看到了一些不知道是不是关于我的东西。不知道是不是自己想太多，还是真的有关联。但就是有着不详的预感。是不是要失去两位要好的朋友？我知道我真的应该继续做我的essay， 但是有些事情不讲，心里就有不舒服，就不能专心。
当一个平常笑哈哈的人突然在你面前哭，你会怎么样？常常把不开心的事收起来，不跟别人说，觉得有误会但不讲，原来这在友谊里是完全不健康的。迟早这一份友谊会消失，变成回忆。就是因为这个原因，我才觉得陈奕迅的最佳损友超真实。每一份交情都是脆弱的，只要有误会就很可能断掉。唯有互相坦白，才可以把这条线粘回去。
是时候坦白了吗？其实我也很坦白的把我所感觉的说出来。 是对方没变，还是我一直想它不可能变。还是他对我所讲的受了伤害？
不要写了。真的要做我的essay了。期待第一次SSM的prayer conference!!!940pm!!!
Monday, November 30, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
其实自己一个人真的没有什么不好。至少能反省一下生命中的点点滴滴。
现在已经差不多两点了。我室友和project mates吃supper. 你们一定会问为什么我没有去。我也不知道。健康比较重要？睡眠？到底人生什么才是重要的。那朋友重不重要？有些时候我真的不知道。如果健康和朋友，你们会选哪一个？
我心中很多的怀疑。不知道她们三个出去会讲我坏话吗？疑心很重。进了大学，我觉得我整个人变了。很不认识这个自己。改变是一件好事吗？我真的不知道。很不喜欢疑心重的自己。可能是经过JC时代，对人的信心真的毁了。可能以后，就只有跟教会的人能坦白。在教会才是真正的自己。
好久没有打中文。我可能以后都在这里写中文。无论外界怎么的排次中文和中国人，我会一直坚持下去。因为我深深知道我这坚持是对的，淘神喜悦的。终有一天，我会回到中国，传讲福音。
几天前，我不知为什么突然间觉得我要坚持读我的科系。我知道是神的安排。但就几天前，我真的很肯定，这是我该读的。虽然还看不到有什么前途，但我真的会坚持下去，神的力量何等广大，'nothing is impossible with God.'
Thursday, September 10, 2009
这是一个很容易被遗忘的地方，但当心情不好，往往就会想到这里。本来还蛮像tweet我所有的心声，但因为在facebook可以看得到还是决定不要。
在宿舍已经有4个星期了。说习惯也不是，不习惯也不是。自己也不知为什么，越来越难适应。或是compromise对方太多了吧。很想睡得舒服。但可能比较难在我们俩之间找到一个平衡。或是因为我没讲？还是他没发觉到？但是我要讲的是，可能他已经听到我跟我妈讲了，但我不是以前的我，不会乱告诉人家。所以除了我妈之外，也只有另一个人知道。
在宿舍真的要懂得掩饰自己的感情。不能在其他人面前哭，也有很多东西不能很容易的说出口。那还要继续住吗？可能是神给我的一个训练，不能这么依靠我妈了。真的要长大了。真的很不想长大。为什么？我也不知道。可能在情感方面就常只依靠她。这下我真的哭了。该睡觉了。要脱离脱离脱离！不然明天一定有人问。
应该没人会看吧。看了请tag。至少我知道还有人在读。谢谢！
在宿舍已经有4个星期了。说习惯也不是，不习惯也不是。自己也不知为什么，越来越难适应。或是compromise对方太多了吧。很想睡得舒服。但可能比较难在我们俩之间找到一个平衡。或是因为我没讲？还是他没发觉到？但是我要讲的是，可能他已经听到我跟我妈讲了，但我不是以前的我，不会乱告诉人家。所以除了我妈之外，也只有另一个人知道。
在宿舍真的要懂得掩饰自己的感情。不能在其他人面前哭，也有很多东西不能很容易的说出口。那还要继续住吗？可能是神给我的一个训练，不能这么依靠我妈了。真的要长大了。真的很不想长大。为什么？我也不知道。可能在情感方面就常只依靠她。这下我真的哭了。该睡觉了。要脱离脱离脱离！不然明天一定有人问。
应该没人会看吧。看了请tag。至少我知道还有人在读。谢谢！
Sunday, August 23, 2009
i know i haven't blogged for ages coz mainly of the use of twitter. but there are some things that really cant be expressed in 140 characters.
school has started and work's beginning to pile even before i manage to settle down in school. not because i'm still in the play mood but because there's really too much changes to uni life. lessons are often unpredictable, i have to do almost 9 readings a week, no more numbers and calculations to look at, few familiar faces, wierd accents, wierd hall people, the clubbing and staying till late culture and the list goes on.
piano exam was on friday which was totally screwed. and everytime ppl ask me how is it i try to smile and say 'it's ok, i still have nx yr!' maybe tt's nature, tt's me. not liking ppl to worry about me, not liking to hear ppl say 'dont cry lah, confirm pass one!'
so after piano exam, i thought i would be able to finally settle down in school and feel less of a burden, there's individual presentation coming tues which i have nothing to write/talk abt till now. it's so stressful to be the first to present, not knowing what to say, what the reading is about, whether the projector works, how to present. all i can to is walk by faith, have confidence in God. i always try to tell myself 'don't worry! it's only 5%!' but the thought tt it's counted in final term just freaks me out.
many uncertainties still lies ahead, and i always ask God 'why not you just send me to china, spread the gospel, do sth more meaningful than reading stuff tt i dont understand, not particularly interested in?' i gotta say i still dont have any answers, i have no idea what i'm doing now, in the future. i always have this thought of changing my course, going back HK to at least do sth i'm interested in.
i wish that i can go on stage again, not because of the recognition and applause and praises and flowers i get, but because tt's what i enjoy most and tt's my dream. everytime i see joey yung, i'll always hope tt i was able to do all those. and how i can share my testimony, definitely including songs like I CAN TRUST YOU and dai ling wo. one day i'll have my own album, choreo my own dance for my song, particularly contemp where most youths aren't liking anymore. and then i can use this to go into china, base there, and spend the rest of my life serving God in china. but i know some dreams will nvr come true. and i have better things to do.
writing all these down made me feel much better. alone in the hostel room, i thought i'll cry like mad, thinking of what to do for the presentation, cracking my brains not coming out with anything, and lastly i'll end up watching video and playing games. now i'm in a calm state to focus on my presentation. pray tt i'll really come out with something.
now, there's still a use in blogging. i dont know when i'll be back here again, or anyone will read this since this blog is dead for ages and this is such a long post. but i still love you, blog!
school has started and work's beginning to pile even before i manage to settle down in school. not because i'm still in the play mood but because there's really too much changes to uni life. lessons are often unpredictable, i have to do almost 9 readings a week, no more numbers and calculations to look at, few familiar faces, wierd accents, wierd hall people, the clubbing and staying till late culture and the list goes on.
piano exam was on friday which was totally screwed. and everytime ppl ask me how is it i try to smile and say 'it's ok, i still have nx yr!' maybe tt's nature, tt's me. not liking ppl to worry about me, not liking to hear ppl say 'dont cry lah, confirm pass one!'
so after piano exam, i thought i would be able to finally settle down in school and feel less of a burden, there's individual presentation coming tues which i have nothing to write/talk abt till now. it's so stressful to be the first to present, not knowing what to say, what the reading is about, whether the projector works, how to present. all i can to is walk by faith, have confidence in God. i always try to tell myself 'don't worry! it's only 5%!' but the thought tt it's counted in final term just freaks me out.
many uncertainties still lies ahead, and i always ask God 'why not you just send me to china, spread the gospel, do sth more meaningful than reading stuff tt i dont understand, not particularly interested in?' i gotta say i still dont have any answers, i have no idea what i'm doing now, in the future. i always have this thought of changing my course, going back HK to at least do sth i'm interested in.
i wish that i can go on stage again, not because of the recognition and applause and praises and flowers i get, but because tt's what i enjoy most and tt's my dream. everytime i see joey yung, i'll always hope tt i was able to do all those. and how i can share my testimony, definitely including songs like I CAN TRUST YOU and dai ling wo. one day i'll have my own album, choreo my own dance for my song, particularly contemp where most youths aren't liking anymore. and then i can use this to go into china, base there, and spend the rest of my life serving God in china. but i know some dreams will nvr come true. and i have better things to do.
writing all these down made me feel much better. alone in the hostel room, i thought i'll cry like mad, thinking of what to do for the presentation, cracking my brains not coming out with anything, and lastly i'll end up watching video and playing games. now i'm in a calm state to focus on my presentation. pray tt i'll really come out with something.
now, there's still a use in blogging. i dont know when i'll be back here again, or anyone will read this since this blog is dead for ages and this is such a long post. but i still love you, blog!
Monday, June 29, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
100th post. and hadn't been posting for a long time.
我不想说,不想讲. 但是一直放在心里,不知几时才有勇气说出来. 突然想起可以用这个管道把所有东西都说出来.
常跟其他人说'我不怕',但那真的是真话吗?whenever i hear anyone who've gotten their replies, i'll always ask, when am i gonna get one? what if i really dont get? what route am i gonna go? you think i really wanna go back HK to study? do i even bear to leave spore?
有时候觉得带快乐给人家真的那么重要吗? 为了不要别人担心,只好说一些自己都不知道是真还是假的话.但是始终自己都不知道自己真正在想什么.
some verses from a book i just finished reading
"For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, of love and a sound mind" 2 Tim 1:7
"Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord" Psalm 27:14
我不想说,不想讲. 但是一直放在心里,不知几时才有勇气说出来. 突然想起可以用这个管道把所有东西都说出来.
常跟其他人说'我不怕',但那真的是真话吗?whenever i hear anyone who've gotten their replies, i'll always ask, when am i gonna get one? what if i really dont get? what route am i gonna go? you think i really wanna go back HK to study? do i even bear to leave spore?
有时候觉得带快乐给人家真的那么重要吗? 为了不要别人担心,只好说一些自己都不知道是真还是假的话.但是始终自己都不知道自己真正在想什么.
some verses from a book i just finished reading
"For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, of love and a sound mind" 2 Tim 1:7
"Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord" Psalm 27:14
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
ok. i shall blog probably my last post of the year as i will be flying (again) to HK tml and i may not have time for a christmas and NYE post. and since ppl are flooding my tagboard to tell me to blog, so i shall fulfill their wish.
so far, i went to melbourne and vietnam. melbourne was alright i guess. too city for me though. dint manage to find zhiyang coz of the schedule and i have no way to contact him. dance there was fantastic and brett rocks!! was quite irritated over some stuff though but felt much better now! i loved the lavender garden and strawberry farm!
after that was prom. it was alright and i shall not complain about the food coz i dint eat it since it's like all spicy. all i know is i was super tired coz i woke up at 4 plus am that morning thanks to time lag from melbourne though it's only 3 hrs earlier. took quite a lot of photos though. and i took with AK!!! HAHA!!!but i was n't wearing prom dress at that time. and I WILL NEVER BE A TAI TAI!!! maybe a wanyee style one but not a typical one...haha...
then had showcase on the nx mon. nothing really special but i think it was sort of an end to seeing the dancers almost everyday.
then was YA chalet! invited zimin and jas but they couldn't make it in the end. but over all it was fun serving the bros and sis! cutting fruits at 3 am and sleeping only at 5 plus. the chalet was quite good though lots of ants!
then met up with ph and bind the nx mon. all 3 of us went to diff countries sincce we last met! and all 3 are like totally different. haha...had a great time! and BIND! you spoilt our plan! how can you!!!!haha...jkjk...
wed i flew to vietnam. the SQ service wasn't as good though. but dec is really the month that i ever watch the most movies. so far is 5 then i guess i'll watch one more on CX on wed. haha. Hanoi was pretty messy and dusty so i wasn't really in favour of that. but the food was not bad. and they sell dog meat! OMG!!! see...not only China does this kind of stuff...iris even saw cat meat and the tour guide say they eat rabbit meat also. how disgusting. i actually so the bbq-ed or whatever way they cooked it dog which is cut into half and some places have dog heads and tails sticking out! it's even worse than live dogs which are scary enough. anw...the scenery was not bad but their temples cant beat China's and they smell different. we had a sampan ride for 2 hrs which led me to headaches coz after that was 2 hrsbus ride back to Hanoi. but that was not the worst. i went Ha Long Bay and had half a day of boat ride then 3 hrs ride back to Hanoi and then had a trishaw ride on the messy and dusty and noisy streets of Hanoi. so i felt nauseous and hadvery bad headaches which led to me eating very little for dinner which was served only at 9 spore time which means i dont normally eat a lot at this kind of time. but over all, it was quite good. i wanna go Ho Chih Minh City next.
then i'll be flying back to HK tml at arnd 6. quite excited coz all my cousins will be back this time...really missed those times when everyone were in HK and always eating dinner tgt at our grandma's hse. and i get to EAT and SHOP! yesh!!!haha...ok...that's all my activities after i end 'A's which feels like 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 years ago! haha...
ps. i still owe 2 farewell posts so i'll post it after i post my 100th post...haha...this is the 99th post!
so far, i went to melbourne and vietnam. melbourne was alright i guess. too city for me though. dint manage to find zhiyang coz of the schedule and i have no way to contact him. dance there was fantastic and brett rocks!! was quite irritated over some stuff though but felt much better now! i loved the lavender garden and strawberry farm!
after that was prom. it was alright and i shall not complain about the food coz i dint eat it since it's like all spicy. all i know is i was super tired coz i woke up at 4 plus am that morning thanks to time lag from melbourne though it's only 3 hrs earlier. took quite a lot of photos though. and i took with AK!!! HAHA!!!but i was n't wearing prom dress at that time. and I WILL NEVER BE A TAI TAI!!! maybe a wanyee style one but not a typical one...haha...
then had showcase on the nx mon. nothing really special but i think it was sort of an end to seeing the dancers almost everyday.
then was YA chalet! invited zimin and jas but they couldn't make it in the end. but over all it was fun serving the bros and sis! cutting fruits at 3 am and sleeping only at 5 plus. the chalet was quite good though lots of ants!
then met up with ph and bind the nx mon. all 3 of us went to diff countries sincce we last met! and all 3 are like totally different. haha...had a great time! and BIND! you spoilt our plan! how can you!!!!haha...jkjk...
wed i flew to vietnam. the SQ service wasn't as good though. but dec is really the month that i ever watch the most movies. so far is 5 then i guess i'll watch one more on CX on wed. haha. Hanoi was pretty messy and dusty so i wasn't really in favour of that. but the food was not bad. and they sell dog meat! OMG!!! see...not only China does this kind of stuff...iris even saw cat meat and the tour guide say they eat rabbit meat also. how disgusting. i actually so the bbq-ed or whatever way they cooked it dog which is cut into half and some places have dog heads and tails sticking out! it's even worse than live dogs which are scary enough. anw...the scenery was not bad but their temples cant beat China's and they smell different. we had a sampan ride for 2 hrs which led me to headaches coz after that was 2 hrsbus ride back to Hanoi. but that was not the worst. i went Ha Long Bay and had half a day of boat ride then 3 hrs ride back to Hanoi and then had a trishaw ride on the messy and dusty and noisy streets of Hanoi. so i felt nauseous and hadvery bad headaches which led to me eating very little for dinner which was served only at 9 spore time which means i dont normally eat a lot at this kind of time. but over all, it was quite good. i wanna go Ho Chih Minh City next.
then i'll be flying back to HK tml at arnd 6. quite excited coz all my cousins will be back this time...really missed those times when everyone were in HK and always eating dinner tgt at our grandma's hse. and i get to EAT and SHOP! yesh!!!haha...ok...that's all my activities after i end 'A's which feels like 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 years ago! haha...
ps. i still owe 2 farewell posts so i'll post it after i post my 100th post...haha...this is the 99th post!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
farewell-events
1. ELYSIUM dance concert 2008
it was a dream come true since sec 1 when i started dancing in school. though it was really tiring, but i was glad that all went well. i'll miss those days in the studio and all the scoldings and laughters and naggings and pain. and don't forget, ms wee saved 2 dances for us!
2. ACES day
it's just so scary to lead a dance in front of the whole school. but i was glad that it went well. from teaching the dances during PE lessons, the recording and mixing of the songs, making up names for the steps for easier memory, i'm glad it went well. and ACES should be the only thing that the whole hse comm did together.
3.Orientations
4 orientations, 4 totally different experiences. first as OGM, then OGL, then OHL, then MOHL. i wouldn't say i had fun in all, but i learnt many lessons through them.
4. cheerleadings/colosseums
it's so tiring as a cheerleader. so hard to coordinate. it's so difficult to try to make practices fun but yet serious. it was so difficult to not use the dance method of polishing, coz ppl wun know what difference it makes when angles are wrong. but i had fun overall i guess. but it was just really tiring.
5. road race
i hate the mascot race. esp the 2008 one. running from head to toe, toe to head. tired sia. but well, what can i say?
6. open house
dancing under the sun at noon for 4 times, with flu, with cramps and feeling really sleepy. it was open hse when i thought that there were ppl who really cared.
7.SYF
i miss the seniors! it's the first time ever that i feel dance is really tiring. still rmb climbing over the fence. it's really great to know these people. can't wait for the next time we dance again!!!
8.LTC
my dear ahmads!!!i really had a great time! the cheers, laughter, dragon boating, campfire, SANDCASTLE!!!, and lots more!!! i really miss these bunch of people!!!and the fun!!!
9.Pre-U Sem
really tiring and a test of my patience. but i'm glad for those who were theree for me and hearing my complaints. and this is the last event that i really enjoyed myself!
10.Melbourne trip
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it was a dream come true since sec 1 when i started dancing in school. though it was really tiring, but i was glad that all went well. i'll miss those days in the studio and all the scoldings and laughters and naggings and pain. and don't forget, ms wee saved 2 dances for us!
2. ACES day
it's just so scary to lead a dance in front of the whole school. but i was glad that it went well. from teaching the dances during PE lessons, the recording and mixing of the songs, making up names for the steps for easier memory, i'm glad it went well. and ACES should be the only thing that the whole hse comm did together.
3.Orientations
4 orientations, 4 totally different experiences. first as OGM, then OGL, then OHL, then MOHL. i wouldn't say i had fun in all, but i learnt many lessons through them.
4. cheerleadings/colosseums
it's so tiring as a cheerleader. so hard to coordinate. it's so difficult to try to make practices fun but yet serious. it was so difficult to not use the dance method of polishing, coz ppl wun know what difference it makes when angles are wrong. but i had fun overall i guess. but it was just really tiring.
5. road race
i hate the mascot race. esp the 2008 one. running from head to toe, toe to head. tired sia. but well, what can i say?
6. open house
dancing under the sun at noon for 4 times, with flu, with cramps and feeling really sleepy. it was open hse when i thought that there were ppl who really cared.
7.SYF
i miss the seniors! it's the first time ever that i feel dance is really tiring. still rmb climbing over the fence. it's really great to know these people. can't wait for the next time we dance again!!!
8.LTC
my dear ahmads!!!i really had a great time! the cheers, laughter, dragon boating, campfire, SANDCASTLE!!!, and lots more!!! i really miss these bunch of people!!!and the fun!!!
9.Pre-U Sem
really tiring and a test of my patience. but i'm glad for those who were theree for me and hearing my complaints. and this is the last event that i really enjoyed myself!
10.Melbourne trip
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Thursday, October 2, 2008
"For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Matthew 6:32-34
i guess God really wants me to stop worrying. results haven't been good and i have never felt so demoralised in my life before. and once again i was told that i underperform, but hello, cant you see i have improvements in ALL my subjects? you think i'm very happy with my results.i go everywhere trying to comfort ppl for their results. so? what about me? always telling ppl that i'm alright since there's improvement...so? well, if my chem get E in 'A's i'll have improvement! what so happy about that?
i dont know when i'll really not be able to take it. but i hope that day never come. i really pray that i'll really trust in theLORD and let all the negative things get out of the way so i really can concentrate. i really want a break.
please pray for me.
ps. HK trip was a great relaxer.
pss. my bday let me see the more impt things, not presents.
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