stressed

1. tutorials not finished/done
2. people in H3 maths are so smart
3. house comm collation for FunFestique not completed
4. have to practise piano everyday
5. problems in school

how i wish i'm back in secondary sch. even teachers say jc no life.and we're supposed to start studying for promos NOW. like wth. i nvr recall myself studying so early even for prelims. thank GOD for house comm. though lots of extra work but the people brighten up my day! somehow, other people would nvr understand the hardwork that house comm put in. oh well, that sentence was quite random.

on another note, sometimes i just cant get myself to do QT. maybe i'm to tired or maybe i just hate reading. but all these are just excuses. GOD help me. help me to grow in YOU. my life is not mine. YOU gave it to me.

changes...too quick

people change. but this one, too fast. just one day. a total different person. where did you go? i don't understand. your smile, your jokes, it's not there anymore. i'm worried. sometimes not even a hi when we meet.

it's been a crazy 3 days. it's just too quick. the things i heard. i just hope that it's not true at all. maybe i know too much. maybe i should stop listening. but i'm seriously worried. friendships are breaking fast. and i don't know how can i help. thinking about what i've heard. it's painful to believe it's true. why? no one can answer that. only you.

-all of us just wants to see the old you again-

i'm happy!!!

yes...i'm happy...haha...

firstly, i did above my expectations for like practically all my subjects.
secondly, i qualify for H3 maths.
thirdly, i really thank God coz never ever expect myself to do well.

BUT...stress is piling up.millions of undone tutorials.FunFestique signing up starting.Aces day dance.piano exam.and who knows what else?

oh well...but with God, i'm sure i can pull through, though it will be challenging. i'll try my best to depend on Him more and more, day by day.

Apprehending God

" Taste and see that the Lord is good, blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him." Psalm 32:8

it's been long since i last did my QT and when i did it, it really shot me.
i know that God exists but so what? do i really think that he's reality? or just another person?

my faith in God has slowly disappeared...God has not been my top priority for this half a year and it has come to a point where i just feel that i'm like a non-christian and God isn't in me anymore...but i know God is always there...it's just a matter of whether I want to be there or not...how i wish i don't have to go to sch on thurs again and i have hols for the rest of my life and strengthen my walk with God...but i know it'll never happen.

the times ahead is gonna be really tough... with house comm and dance...but God has given me another hurdle to cross another hurdle to test my faith...i'll soon have lots of conflicts with parents about going home late and a lot of other stuff...plus the horrible mid yr results that i predict i'll get...studies will gonna be crazy and a lot more others...but i'm studying for God and God gave me a chance to study so i'm gonna do my best...

some thing to think about...Am i a student that happens to be a christian or a christian that happens to be a student?

my prayer:
Lord, help me to draw closer to You Lord, even in the midst of busy school work and that i may lay hold on eternal things not temporal things. Enable me to taste You and know that You are good.Make heaven more real to me than earthly thing has ever been. In Jesus' name i pray, Amen.