Lord, help me. help me to find my true self, my true meaning of living in this world. help me to find a reason for all that is happening. help me see what is right and what is wrong. help me see what i should be doing, what should my priority be. everytime i try to protect myself, i hurt people. and then, i ended up hurting myself again. what use is there to protect myself? thank God that i'm meeting Jia En later. at least i dont have to hide my feelings for so long. thank God for my church friends, always supportive. thanks for all the cards. crying is good. yes i know. thanks for everything CYYAM!

anyway, my mum is coming back tonight! which means i got new things!