"Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead." 2Corinthians 1:9

"Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death." 2 Corinthians 7:10

i felt emo on the bus today. i just wanted to cry at that time, but i dont know why and tears coulcn't come down. maybe i wasn't really relying on God this whole week. there is so much more time to reflect on my day now that time is mostly spent on studying. but i always give studying as an excuse for not talking to God.

visiting uncle lian qing at CGH reminded myself when i was there lying on the bed 2 years back. suddenly, a scared feelingcame to me. i'm always haunted by thoughts like what if i get hospitalised again during 'A's? and during every exam i have, the same htought pops into my mind. the fear hasn't gone. it really took me some courage to walk from A&E to the ward. i guess i really need to pray.

it hasn't been a good week. not a very God-centred week. maybe that explains my emo-ness. i'm glad i dint pon sch on tues, though i really had the intention to. and also tomorrow. it's difficult to fight with my old self, but well, Godly sorrow leaves to no regrets! so i'm gonna persevere! go wanny!