over!

at last it's over! well done Miranda! thanks all those who went down for the games!

anw...this FunFestique period was really a good time to get to know other house comm members and share our problems with each other and you slowly realize all houses have the same problem.haha.

my temper this week wasn't very good but thank God that my friends understand. thanks guys for tolerating with my horrible behaviour.there are just too many things happening. personal things, house things, tests, scoldings and lots more.

today was leaders workshop. gotta gather with Ahmad again! love them loads. and was reflecting through this 2 months in office. and suddenly the teacher touched on the times where you felt powerless and powerful. and got reminded by the scolding i had on mon. cant stand it. i know i shouldn't think of it anymore but i nvr got scolded by a teacher till that extent before?

then was quite stressed up coz the workshop supposed to end at 11 so planned for aces training to start at 12 but apparently it ended only at 12 so we didn't eat lunch until 4. thank God that the house comm was really supportive today. good that they sense the seriousness of our FIRST PUBLIC PERFORMANCE. go house comm!!!you can do it! rock on!

many things to complete this weekend and i dont think i'll be able to finish it. but oh well, shall study for chem SPA first since it's a national exam.

ps. i'm NOT smart.

untitled

i don't wanna hide anymore. joking, laughing with friends. everyone just think that i'm a super cheerful girl, nothing is wrong, studies no problem and whatever rubbish. but right now, my studies are suffering so so much and i don't know where to start. i don't wanna act like i love school and everything anymore. i don't wanna laugh my way through school when i know that tears can roll down anytime soon.

anyway, thanks to all those who comforted me today. there are some things that i cant tell but really thanks for being there.

on another note, i think i should drop h3 maths. though i hate the feeling of scrificing what i love for my future. comments please.

long gone...

it's been a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time....haha...
ok...let's see...
busy with piano exam funfestique aces and trying my best to study
piano exam down funfestique down soon aces still got 2 plus wks and study hmmm...non stop....

anw....supposedly ahmad outing but ended up left with 4 ppl dinner and 5 ppl pool before that....but it was still fun...ahmad brings me joy...haha...miss the ltc times super a lot....hai...time flies...ltc was like 2 plus months ago....but at least we still stay in contact...hhaa....

piano exam was screwed

cant wait for funfestique...and it to be over...camera camera camera!!!!

aces means i can dance!!!!but i dont enjoy going dance...

study means promos i s coming dunno how long more but very fast it'll be over

anw...bought a BIG candy(joey's new album)...thanks mum!!!

bro is going australia in december

hmmm nothing much lah....i'll try to blog more often

ps...i cant upload photos!!!!
pss...i'm worried about a lot of things/people

stressed

1. tutorials not finished/done
2. people in H3 maths are so smart
3. house comm collation for FunFestique not completed
4. have to practise piano everyday
5. problems in school

how i wish i'm back in secondary sch. even teachers say jc no life.and we're supposed to start studying for promos NOW. like wth. i nvr recall myself studying so early even for prelims. thank GOD for house comm. though lots of extra work but the people brighten up my day! somehow, other people would nvr understand the hardwork that house comm put in. oh well, that sentence was quite random.

on another note, sometimes i just cant get myself to do QT. maybe i'm to tired or maybe i just hate reading. but all these are just excuses. GOD help me. help me to grow in YOU. my life is not mine. YOU gave it to me.

changes...too quick

people change. but this one, too fast. just one day. a total different person. where did you go? i don't understand. your smile, your jokes, it's not there anymore. i'm worried. sometimes not even a hi when we meet.

it's been a crazy 3 days. it's just too quick. the things i heard. i just hope that it's not true at all. maybe i know too much. maybe i should stop listening. but i'm seriously worried. friendships are breaking fast. and i don't know how can i help. thinking about what i've heard. it's painful to believe it's true. why? no one can answer that. only you.

-all of us just wants to see the old you again-

i'm happy!!!

yes...i'm happy...haha...

firstly, i did above my expectations for like practically all my subjects.
secondly, i qualify for H3 maths.
thirdly, i really thank God coz never ever expect myself to do well.

BUT...stress is piling up.millions of undone tutorials.FunFestique signing up starting.Aces day dance.piano exam.and who knows what else?

oh well...but with God, i'm sure i can pull through, though it will be challenging. i'll try my best to depend on Him more and more, day by day.

Apprehending God

" Taste and see that the Lord is good, blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him." Psalm 32:8

it's been long since i last did my QT and when i did it, it really shot me.
i know that God exists but so what? do i really think that he's reality? or just another person?

my faith in God has slowly disappeared...God has not been my top priority for this half a year and it has come to a point where i just feel that i'm like a non-christian and God isn't in me anymore...but i know God is always there...it's just a matter of whether I want to be there or not...how i wish i don't have to go to sch on thurs again and i have hols for the rest of my life and strengthen my walk with God...but i know it'll never happen.

the times ahead is gonna be really tough... with house comm and dance...but God has given me another hurdle to cross another hurdle to test my faith...i'll soon have lots of conflicts with parents about going home late and a lot of other stuff...plus the horrible mid yr results that i predict i'll get...studies will gonna be crazy and a lot more others...but i'm studying for God and God gave me a chance to study so i'm gonna do my best...

some thing to think about...Am i a student that happens to be a christian or a christian that happens to be a student?

my prayer:
Lord, help me to draw closer to You Lord, even in the midst of busy school work and that i may lay hold on eternal things not temporal things. Enable me to taste You and know that You are good.Make heaven more real to me than earthly thing has ever been. In Jesus' name i pray, Amen.