i jogged today!i don't know why the sudden urge. praobably i wanted sometime alone, out of home, without any distractions. but jogging is great! i love it!
i watched SYTYCD3 today! it's been long since i watched dance on TV. i remembered the first season. the only full episode i watched was when i was in hospital. and it's like 2 years ago. how time flies. anyway, saw a girl without arm and a guy without leg danced. i mean they had fake arm and leg but their passion. WOW! though the guy didn't make it but the girl did! how can you breakdance with a fake leg?
i love my brothers and sisters in christ! spamming my tagboard with great encouragements!
pray that i'll get my GC fixed tomorrow and i'll really get enough rest. can't stand it when i wake up at 7 everyday feeling super tired but cant go back to sleep.it's not a good feeling.

am i gonna just follow what others are doing for the next half of my jc life? it's just how true God's words are. we have to be responsible for the decisions we made. and i have faced it before. one year and one month ago, i made my own decision and followed what others say. but i did not listen to God, did not seek God's will. and i had to bear the consequences.

church camp had made me realise how miserable my life has been for the times while i was in jc. i was just working for people and trying to show people the best of me. but i did not live for God.

this time round, i'm determined. i really am. determined to turn back to God. i know the route back will not be easy, but i know when i trust everything to God, He'll provide.

everyday i'm reminded to put God as my priority. it's just so amazing how God reminds you of things. now, i'm living a happier life, a more focused one.
the important thing now is discipline to study. midyears are in like less than 2 weeks but i havent done much revision. i need to stay focused!

am i gonna just follow what others are doing for the next half of my jc life? it's just how true God's words are. we have to be responsible for the decisions we made. and i have faced it before. one year and one month ago, i made my own decision and followed what others say. but i did not listen to God, did not seek God's will. and i had to bear the consequences.
church camp had made me realise how miserable my life has been for the times while i was in jc. i was just working for people and trying to show people the best of me. but i did not live for God. this time round, i'm determined. i really am. determined to turn back to God. i know the route back will not be easy, but i know when i trust everything to God, He'll provide.

"Let Go" by Dewayne Woods

I couldn't seem to fall asleep
There was so much on my mind
Searching for that peace
But the peace I could not find
So then I knew how to pray
Praying helped me please
Then He said you don't have to cry
Cause I'll supply all your needs

As sooon as I stop worrying
Worrying how the story ends
I'll let go and I let God
Let God have His
when things start happening
I'll stop looking at back then
I let go and I'll let God have His way

There so much going on
Sometimes I can't find my way
And often times I struggle
Struggle from day to day
I have to realize that it's not my battle
It's not my battle to fight
I have to know if I to put it in His hands
That everything will be alright

As sooon as I stop worrying
Worrying how the story ends
I'll let go and I let God
Let God have His when things start happening
I'll stop looking at back then
I let go and I'll let God have His way

are we willing to let go of our lives and let God take charge?

it's irritating when people just dont listen to instructions and then later come and ask all the questions that was answered during briefing.
it's irritating when people get angry with you because you did not tell them what to do when most of what they should do was told in the briefing and others were common sense.
it's even more irritating when people do something wrong and they just give you that stupid smile on their faces acting innocent.
it's even more more irritating when you have to resolve all the problems that people have made which should nto be happening.
it's even more more more irritating when you have to put a smile on your face when you're already bursting with anger inside.

thanks to my fellow SLOs for listening to all my nonsense everyday.

thanks to Nawal. for dumping all the saikang to you like cleaning up the table. i'm sorry i can't help much. you should know why. at least we think in common. haha. well, have fun studying and doing your essay outlines.

thanks cluster B2. had fun with you guys during the 6 days. i guess it started with barney. thanks for all the joy and laughter you provided me through the week no matter how angry i was.

am i willing to say no to my desires?
am i willing to accept the sufferings?
am i willing to let go of all the worldly things around me?
am i willing to quieten down myself to stay in front of God?
am i willing to live a Christ-like life?

there are things that i need to resolve. but i just dont have the courage to talk about things. please pray for me. as i learn to let go of things, to forget the past. i need strngth from God. thank you my dear brothers and sisters.

it's almost 2 years. i'm blogging this because i wont be around when the day comes. 26th May 2006. thank God for the relatively good health this past 2 years.

the song that always gives me the courage and strength from God.
作曲：黄国伦 作词：黄国伦 编曲：黄国伦
你的意念高过我的意念
你的道路高过我的道路
每当我彷徨失措 软弱无助的时候词
我要在你怀中安息

你的时候不同我的时候
要等候不住感谢祈求自
知道黑暗会过去 我要在你光中欢喜
谁能敌挡我若你要帮助我

困难算什么 痛苦算什么
在它们的背后 是你祝福的手
孤单算什么 羞辱算什么
你的爱是那么深 你的恩典够我用

带领我 怜悯我 我要紧紧跟随你
我要全心依靠你 你是我主 我的拯救
带领我 扶持我 我要天天歌颂你
坚信不移你应许 你是葡萄树我是枝子不分离