well, i'm officially stopping dance. i don't know when i'm gonna ever go for a proper dance practice again, but i know, i'm gonna stop for now. until the melbourne trip comes along. it's sad, but well, as what the alumni said (amazingly i was listening), when the time comes, you have to let go. as much as any other dancers want to perform, i want to perform too. but i know i'll not regret my decision, coz it's a decision a made. dance has become a large part of my life, startin from SYF, national day, Open House and our biggest event ever, ELYSIUM. not forgetting cheerleading 2007, ACES day, interhouse mass dance and cheerleading 2008. i cant imagine how my life would be without dance. but i guess, i really have to let go. dance had made me drift away from people, studies and most importantly, GOD.
to all my dancers: we are a team. and i really don't wanna see ANYONE get their results next year and start dropping sad tears, and that includes me. even though we aren't gonna dance together until Melbourne trip comes, we still can meet up and give each other moral support and study together! and i know our teachers wouldn't wanna see us like that too. it's amazing when people see 2 dancers walking together and always ask 'today got dance arh'. i have no idea why i wrote that. anyway, i guess we had enough fun already (even though trainings aren't always that fun), it's time we really sit down and settle ourselves for thise 4-month studey spree.we can have fun after that! it's just 4-months. if we could live without dance fro the past 16 years, i guess we can do it for at least 4 months. gambatte people!
to michelle: thanks so much for talking things out with us. it made me see things in a different way. this one half years is just amazing. frankly speaking, i didn't really like you in the beginning coz i think that someone is threatening my place as the dance president, but well, in the end both of us still have a position, but in 2 totally different ways. i guess our friendship really got deeper durin LTC. still rmb your SK II mask, only trying to scare people. and the time after dragon boating. thanks for working so hard for dance, having always to listen to both sides of stories. i guess you're really the one that knows the teachers the best. especially your imitations! anyway, study hard and we are so gonna study together and you'll listen to your classical music which is so super nice!!!
to joslyn: i'm sorry for the decision we've made. but i really can't see my dancers' results continue going down the drain. as much as you wanna perform, i wanna perform too. but really, at some point of time, there are some things that have to let go. priorities are very important. nevermind if you put dance before studies. but not when you put dance before God. i'm not gonna say much about it, coz i really don't know how strong your faith is in God. anyway, i really hope you wouldn't neglect your studies and really still work hard for 'A's. no matter how much you don't feel like performing with us anymore, we're still a team and we still want to see you smile when you get your results. and that includes ms sue and ms sim.
anyway, read wh's blog and the first line reminded me of something that i blogged before long time ago. i'm gonna change it a bit to fit in to what i've been typiiing for the past half hour.
Am i a christian who happen to be a dancer, or a dancer who happen to be a christian?
i especially write this to joslyn. really hope you think through some things from what i say. you can always come to me. i pray that i will always be the former. priorities!!!
